Mission Prep!

After lots and lots of prayer, playing the waiting game, getting blessings and watching others, I have decided to serve a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints! Yep, this is really going to happen people.
I have wanted to serve a mission for several years now. I have received blessings that have suggested a mission and every week at church, I looked at the missionary board and told myself that I was going to be the first sister missionary in our ward up there! And then General Conference came.
LIFE. CHANGING.
When the announcement came that the sister missionary age change was decreasing by 2 whole years, I couldn't believe it!! I thought that I had 2 years before I had to even seriously consider this! I could be out in a year! This is crazy people. Let's just say that Conference spoke to me. But I was not very willing to listen. Don't get me wrong, I love conference weekend, I was scared that the Spirit was going to tell me that a mission was were the Lord needed me. Did it make any sense that I always wanted to and now was too afraid to admit to myself that I was feeling the Spirit tell me to go? NONE. Was it absolutely horrible of me to put my hands over my ears, do a little dance and sing, "I'm not listening!!" Yes, yes it was. Repenting soon followed after that. The atonement is real my friends.
After I repented for not listening to the Spirit, I decided that I really did want an answer if this is really where the Savior wants me. I prayed, and prayed, then prayed some more, and guess what?...I prayed more. After about 2 months of this, I started to get a bit discouraged. My prayers were not as from the heart as they used to be and I was not as earnestly seeking for an answer as much as I knew that I should be. I am so human you guys, It's ridiculous. My prayers started to change. I put a lot of thought into this and decided that I wanted to serve a mission. In my prayers told that to Heavenly Father and asked him if that is where he wanted me as well. I have learned that being on the same page as Heavenly Father is SO MUCH EASIER in the long run of things. After a few weeks, I got my answer. It was in a blessing that my father gave me. The spirit was so strong. Although, I am probably not going to be the first or the only sister missionary on the board by the bishop's office, I am ecstatic to be included in this marvellous work!